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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
I can't quite express the words I want to say, so I try to understand this:
....
Okay, maybe I still can't put it into my invariable (really?) jargon. But you know me, I don't know anything, as always, and I will put up with it. Right? Please say yes, I have not the time to expound on everything. It's not like I care. It's not like I have to care. It's not like I have the time to care. Yes, feed me academics and such, I want to graduate, gadamet. Confidence is slowly seeping through and draining out of my veins (not that there's a lot left, or that there was something to begin with anyway), and dealing with this, this, whatever this is, is just more than enough, more than what I could possibly at the moment (or for a long time maybe, i'm not quite sure). But, hey, why am I even making look like it's anyone else's fault; I'm the one bringing this to myself. I'm good at putting myself through all this, I complain, then I spend a whole hour during the jeepeney ride home thinking about whatever bothers me, like spoiled milk, world peace, and you, you stupid piece of crap (sorry), then I automatically find something worth putting my attention to, and totally swimming through the shallowness of the attention-grabbing idea. So, in conclusion, the BJT amp cannot help me in this, and so will zener diodes and KCL equations, neither will you, nor will ice cream, nor will words.
I feel like I know something, but I can't quite get it out. So much for knowing something. Heh.
smiled at the sun again @ 10:24 PM,
